I have reached that point, that point where you cannot boast about being able to drink caffeinated beverages whenever you want and in large quantities and not suffer the consequences.
My husband I love our morning coffees together and some evenings we will have another cup after dinner. Our evening cup of coffee is usually to help… namely me to stay awake for our nightly Netflix addiction.
Lately I’ve been noticing that when it comes time to actually sleep, I can’t. If I do its for a very short amount of time or my sleep is very broken up lately resulting in 3-4 hours of sleep.
The result. Me misplacing EVERYTHING that I touch… words constantly escape me and I’m always been told how tired I look, aka you look terrible! Thus resulting in my own frustration and fear of coming off as an disheveled idiot.
Thing is, I can’t seem to fully function without coffee and at the same time when I use it to keep myself awake it works overtime.
I am stuck in a perpetual cycle, an addiction that I know is a problem….but also seemingly the solution at the same time.
I have given up the black stuff before during an eight week challenge. The first was filled with horrific headaches, mood swings and overall discontent. By the second week I was still a bit grumpy but feeling so much better.
By the end of the eight weeks I noticed my complexion was brighter, I was more alert and overall was much happier person. Now during this challenge I learned and adopted some much better habits that contributed to these results.
I missed it, I missed the morning ritual with my husband… our morning coffee , so I brought coffee back into my morning routine.
Just a little at first, you know one cup in the morning… then 1 cup slowly turned back into two which on some days may turn into more.
So as you can imagine I am now back to looking like a gargoyle and incapable of holding a coherent conversation.
Oh but I do love it though!